Ego

The main goal in Yoga is to extinguish your Ego so as to become unbounded consciousness.

Yes, Yoga had an Ego even before Fraud did. It's the "I" in all you do. You need to get rid of your "I" to become fully aware. This is a cliff note explanation. If you want a much more thorough understanding read: The Bhagavad-Gita, or The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali.

This week has been a whirlwind of "I-ness."

The mindfulness retreat that I joined is excellent. It is reminding me that in order to be less egotistic, I have to take time for myself. Meditate, relax, and organize some thoughts in my head.

Hunter had a few guests, and introduced us to a wonderful practice. The guest interviews reminded the group that we need to practice our mindfulness before we can expect to achieve a result.

Everything requires practice.

The Deepak Chopra meditation experience is getting me closer to my meditation goals.

It's still not easy to blank my mind out and think about the mantra. There are a few reasons for this: The mantra is in sanskrit. It's said that just by speaking sanskrit your soul will be uplifted due to the beauty and expression of it's poetic sound. I know two languages: Spanish and English. That still doesn't help with the mantra. Every time I use the mantra, I forget what it means! I understand that the definition of the mantra does not matter, as long as you decrease your thoughts per minute when meditating. It's just that not knowing what I'm chanting in my head bugs the hell out of me.



Practice, Practice, Practice. That will fix the bugs.


This week I completed a day of review for my yoga training. The day was nice. My ego sky rocketed when I was able to assist in a handstand. Ha! Handstands are dangerous and if you don't assist right, you can hurt yourself and the student. Thankfully none of that happened during the periods I was incorrectly assisting that night! :P

The Live in the Now (LITN) program is not doing so well. I'm positive it's because I've added too many activities to my day. I've stayed so busy that I'm still making bad food choices.


Even my juicing was a bad decision:
What I juiced this morning was not appetizing. It was a disgusting green packed juice! Cucumbers, Celery, green bell pepper, apple, Carrot, Beets, and turmeric.
I didn't realize that taking a break from juicing would change your taste buds!
I wanted to add a dash of turmeric to the juice, but accidentally dropped a few tablespoons into my 12oz glass.
I'm hoping that my healthy-food-loving taste buds are intact and the accidental turmeric spill was the cause of the juice fiasco.
I'll attempt a better juice concoction tomorrow. It will be my breakfast replacement.



My ego is still an evil anchor for my goals, even so: it's a bountiful time for mindfulness and I'm going to try to slow down and piece what I'm learning together. That's what mindfulness is all about anyway, slowing down and being kind.