Hiatus

When cooking, some people prepare everything before hand, while other's just throw stuff in a pot.
In some cases you either fail, and the dish is disgusting, or you succeed.

This is also the way it is in life.
You work and work at something. You feel that you took all the right steps, only to watch your desires fall through, leaving a bad taste in your mouth.
Sometimes people fall into an amazing experience of happiness, wealth, health and joy, without going to college, having a plan, or even a goal.

These past few months, I've been preparing and arranging and rearranging. It's too early to say that I have failed. I completed the meditation practice, the mindfulness retreat and I feel wonderful.
The skills I need to better my thoughts and actions have been given to me through planning and follow through: Plan to exercise and meditate. Plan to make space for peace and kindness. The follow through happened very steadily in the beginning. Now it's waning off.

The holiday's bring with it travel, family, love and distraction.
Yes! I used the big turkey and the big beautiful, luscious ham to distract me during the Thanksgiving weekend.  Making the follow through less of a daily practice. But, I did not gorge myself on sweets like the previous Thanksgiving celebrations. I would love to take full credit for that, but I can't.
It was all the planning.

The planning is easy. Thinking in the now is still extremely difficult. It sounds as if though it would be easy to follow. Who doesn't want to live in the now? I know I can figure this out. Next blog, I'll have a systematic "living in the now" search and rescue plan. Trial and errors included.